Grief is hell. I watched my husband die. I held his hand and he just slipped away. It’s been 18 months and I don’t want to live either. I never thought to be widowed before I turned 40. Only reason I haven’t given up and joined him is our kids. They still need me. Once they don’t need me anymore maybe then. I want to be with him, wherever that might be, heaven, hell, oblivion, I don’t care. I see him just out of my reach so often I feel like I’m losing my mind. It’s physically painful to live without him. I’m I. A support group and I’m on antidepressants.2 different types. I can only imagine how much harder it would be with out them. Once my youngest is settled as an adult if I still feel like this then I’ll let my broken heart take me away. But that’s at least another decade from now. So I understand how Sion feels. Everytime someone asks me why I’m not over it yet I kinda want to hurt them. Lashing out at everyone and everything. It doesn’t make the hurt go away. But this is what they mean when they say misery loves company. The miserable want others to be miserable with them because misery tricks us into thinking if we spread the misery around it will be less for us. It doesn’t work though.
2ndmlsimp
Grief is hell. I watched my husband die. I held his hand and he just slipped away. It’s been 18 months and I don’t want to live either. I never thought to be widowed before I turned 40. Only reason I haven’t given up and joined him is our kids. They still need me. Once they don’t need me anymore maybe then. I want to be with him, wherever that might be, heaven, hell, oblivion, I don’t care. I see him just out of my reach so often I feel like I’m losing my mind. It’s physically painful to live without him. I’m I. A support group and I’m on antidepressants.2 different types. I can only imagine how much harder it would be with out them. Once my youngest is settled as an adult if I still feel like this then I’ll let my broken heart take me away. But that’s at least another decade from now. So I understand how Sion feels. Everytime someone asks me why I’m not over it yet I kinda want to hurt them. Lashing out at everyone and everything. It doesn’t make the hurt go away. But this is what they mean when they say misery loves company. The miserable want others to be miserable with them because misery tricks us into thinking if we spread the misery around it will be less for us. It doesn’t work though.
Otome_Lov3r
Maybe it’s cuz of the translation but why’d they start calling Sion “Zion”😭💀💀